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on the dole again
Life is interesting to say the least. Sunday morning I attempted to apply for unemployment insurance (UI) and was prompted to enter my last day at the office which is coming up this Friday. Sadly the Department of Labor's website won't let me enter a date in the future much to my chagrin and that means this Friday I'll have to submit my claim upon arriving at home.

Saturday night I received an irresistable offer. Let's just say that if things actually become worse and I'm unable to keep my head above water then there are going to be changes in my life so I can keep on living. Hate to phrase it like that but some people, i.e. my little sister (a Schrödinger's gentle reader since i don't know if she does or does not read heptapod.org), think I'm still suicidal. Still I want to ensure that I have my act together rather than be a burden. Just want to say that even if I am able to land on my feet and hit the ground running there's still a very strong chance that I'd just do it anyway.

At the moment I feel like a stick-in-the-mud. Despite the fact I'm optimistic there's a certain kind of lingering inertia that cautions me against procrastination. I've got shit that I want to do and I want it done soon because I want my life.

genious
Procrastination's flabby hands have a firm grip upon me. Still I'm able to go online and browse stuff. Sunday morning I was reading about the 2009 economic forecast and. quantum mechanics. For your edification and to pad out this edition of heptapod.org I will be providing links in addition to brief, selected quotes to intrigue you towards edification, gentle reader. Forgive me Father for I have sinned. It has been at least thirty years since my last confession. On Sunday I was reading Wikipedia as if it was a legitimate reference. If it helps reduce the number of Novinas I will be tasked with, I did vandalize some pages.

Okay, I'm burned out and want to finish what I'm reading before I pursue the rest of my day.

just wanna say
One tough thing is keeping the pace of being optimistic despite everything that seems to be pointing towards complete global collapse. More positively I'm arguing that's simply being overdramatic without being grounded in reality, black swans aside.

Still a thought occured to me on Sunday. Just a personal fear that things might end up being like Miracle Mile. Hardly the specter of nuclear war under whose sensational shadow I have lived for most of my life only experiencing a brief respite between 1988 and 2001. I don't want to end up like Harry and finally realizing happiness at the last minute.

oneiromancy
As you may or may not know, gentle reader, I was a contributor to and eventually Arts & Graphics editor of my college newspaper. Last night's dream was a weird replay of that situation. There were only two staff members, Lee and myself, and I was a writer while she was the faculty advisor.
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