5/6/08
Work was really slow but I only lost 45 minutes. If anyone offers to let me go home early I am going to decline. The pragmatism of having more money and having it look good on the yearly review next week.

Anyway this left me with time to think while I wasted my time. I was thinking about how I measure myself, comparing myself to others. How I'm probably judged by those I perceive as enemies. Seriously I intended to be positive and try to ablate my ego through introspection.

Nah, didn't work. The idea was there but it was wrapped in frozen piss. I capped it off with the fact that I'm happy I no longer have any friends.

It's not true, they're just friends in different ways now. It's a learning experience and an exercise in self-reliance.

Even that thought bugs the shit out of me because once again I'm twisting things around in my head.

Doesn't matter.

 

I'm here, nothing of interest is going on. Work is slow.