Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) is the therapy I'm currently undergoing to manage my anxiety, interpersonal relationships and depression. The theory, as I understand it, is during a stressful event one's brain is overwhelmed and files away various data related to the experience in a willy-nilly fashion due to a desire to get it over and done with rather than taking the time, dwelling upon it and putting it in the correct place. So someone could freak out and it'd appear to be a non-sequitor in a completely normal situation. This is the reprocessing bit of EMDR.
I like to believe that this therapy as being an affirmation of my endeavor to be a mechanistic materialist. Eye movements, external stimuli among other information and sensations actually reprograms the brain. The best analogy I can draw to it is neurolinguistic programming and to a lesser extent Frank Herbert's description of the Bene Gesserit techniques used to guide and manipulate people.
Ninety percent of my sessions are talking about recent shit that comes up in my life, how I attempt to manage it and usually goes into my dredging up how I have these old tapes which guide my behavior and reactions. My therapist has been pushing to have me undergo more EMDR the past few sessions.
Last Tuesday the Eighteenth towards the ass-end of my session he suggested doing some EMDR. I was reticent because I didn't want to have something come up, get stressed out and have a breakdown later that evening. He told me that he was going to use EMDR to accentuate the positives in my life rather than reprocessing the old, negative shit.
I don't care if I'm gullible and highly susceptible to the placebo effect but EMDR does something for me which is greater than normal therapy. This pleases me.
Turns out that I was putting a phi (φ) not a theta (θ) for the past couple of months.
On the bright side nobody noticed and probably wouldn't have understood what I was doing with my apps.
Dreamers can't be choosers. I haven't remembered any dreams or snippets in a bit. For some reason maribou's pay cycle became exceedingly important to me. She put her paydates as being the 9th and 26th which is quite an unusual pay cycle and I spent some time coming to the conclusion the pay cycle was the 10th and 25th of the month every month taking bank holidays and weekends into consideration.
Ah there's nothing like the satisfaction of underscoring the lameness of my website.
