oneiromancy
Living along the coast, I am reticent to use 'the shore' since that term always seems inextricably applied to the state of New Jersey, I felt happier then again I wasn't myself. When I caught my reflection in a darkened storefront window I was shorter, clean-shaven with graying hair making me wonder if my closet was full of fifty versions of the outfit I was wearing on the boardwalk in the vain hope some vestige of my waking life self still persisted here.

Across the water, I don't know the direction, there was a tall island rising out of the surf which was studiously ignored by everyone. Atop the mesa were some tall buildings but overall it appeared to be overgrown as if abandoned for more than a century. The ocean was growing rough between the beach and the distant cliffs raising a haze scattering light and obscuring the enigma from plain sight. Did my attention arouse this self-defense mechanism?

Curiousity hounded me until I finally broke and hired a helicopter to cross the strait and explore that distant land. My pilot thought I was crazy asking to be flown to a point over open water but I insisted there was dry land at that point on the map. She demanded that I pay in advance before helping me begin my journey. Below us the waters still raged, whitecaps crashing against each other raising mist high in the air. Halfway across a wind began blowing towards the mainland. When the pilot began suggesting that we turn back I told her she's been paid in advance and is ethically bound to continue the job.

She shouted when a dark shadow came into view and solidified into the distant cliff face that I had been observing for quite some time. The craft pulled a tight turn then began to rise to the top of the island. Once I regained my composure I gave her an I told you so look. After searching for half an hour we landed upon an abandoned parking lot of terra incognita.

Fog wreathed the buildinsg and choked what remained of the streets. Dark, blunt office buildings rose into the washed out sky where the sun was simply a light source than a discernable disk. After some wandering I stumbled upon an area which wasn't completely overgrown and appeared to have been recently used or inhabited by someone. That's where I began to see the game.

A series of eight cubes appeared over a plaza. One was colored pale orange while the remainder were a watery gray like the omnipresent gloom. Each set of cubes was arranged in various shapes like an L or a square or an E among others. They fell from the sky and by thinking I was able to arrange the shapes so none of the orange squares were tangential to each other. The more I manipulated the shapes by thought the more I understood what was going on as if solving the game was language unto itself.

This city had once been part of the mainland. Populated by chromatophobes who went unseen in their ghost world atop the real world known to me and my fellow citizens. Eventually people like me became unbearable to these unseen folks and they sundered their world from our own but portions still touched our world acting as a bridge between our realms. Since I was from the world of color I swiftly lost the game since I didn't know there were subtle gradations of the gray which were as obvious to chromatophobes as red and green are to the mean of humanity.

Already the gloom was turning to murk alarming me because my sole means of escape may have already left me behind for their own sanity and safety. I tried to retrace my steps only to be distracted by bright colors. In a distant storefront window there was an OPEN sign in the window, electric blue letters surrounded by a vivid orange border. Squinting my eyes to reduce the contrast of the sign and the rest of this shadow world I could see silhouettes of people going about their business.

I ran for the helicopter finding it empty. The pilot didn't leave a note and the engines were off.

Now I was surrounded by the chromatophobes. They milled like cinematic zombies around myself and the vehicle. Within moments they were upon me, my throat was cut and my body was stuffed into the pilot's seat. I watched gagging in horror as the dim outlines of windows and buildings bounced up and down when these ghosts hoisted the helicopter over their shoulders. Eventually the bleeding stopped but my consciousness persisted despite the onset of death which meant I had no fear as the copter crashed in the water and licked the window.

I didn't sink. Currents drew myself and the vehicle down the waterways of the colored world where I watched the lights drown out the stars and swifly pass overhead with significantly more parallax than true stars.

Later I awoke, rolled over and went back to sleep. The chromatophobes had been victorious and condemned wholesome mankind to live in exceedingly tiny spaces no greater than ten yards lest they suffer the wrath of the cube game. I was among four humans living on a distant brown asteroid. We could walk on the surface despite the phyical effects of vacuum but were still susceptible to the bitter cold of three degrees kelvin and lack of oxygen. We'd clamber up our escape hatches and dash across the dusty surface towards clear tubes which led to the stores that sustained our dwindling population.

immortality is mine
heptapod.org is best known for providing the Caution THIS IS SPARTA image macro in addition to a copy of Ted Chiang's Story of your Life.

A few years ago I would've been tempted to replace caution_this_is_sparta.jpg with a shock image. Nowadays, not so much.

cycling
I do believe that I am happiest when I'm riding my bike. Even when I am acting like Gunnery Sergeant Hartman trying to get my screaming legs to go one more time around to push my fat ass up a hill. Measurable results quantified by the distance travelled and reaching those summits.

Plus in the past week or so I've been noticing that I've been losing fat. raddidge says that fat has been converted to muscle.

Finally it's really helping my mental state. Considering the instability at work and Unmentioned Yet Referenced Situation I'm not stir-crazy nor am I feeling like the whole world is going to fall apart. As a bonus I'm not even arguing with myself saying this is temporary and I'll hit bottom before I know it.

Reminds me of the shop where I acquired my first bicycle in Colorado. It was called Cycle Therapy. Certainly says a lot about the sport. Funny thing is that I don't know if I'd be able to share it with other people considering the fact that I do take leisurely rides. Whenever I'm passed by some hardcore spandexed and helmeted rider I am tempted to shift gears and start pumping my legs to keep pace or maybe pass them. Yet there's no point to such an exercise. That guy's doing what he does best and I'm doing what I do best and there's no reason to keep up with the Joneses.

If I happened to ride along with a friend or someone, I'd be so mentally exhausted that it would promote physical exhaustion condemning me to stopping by the curb and catching my breath for an hour while berating myself for not being a skilled cyclist.

verification
On Saturday I heard from a reliable source that a manager concurred that the company is going under.

Hoo boy.

Thank goodness that cycling does the same thing as Fight Club. After cycling, everything else in your life got the volume turned down.

my ride
june seventh ride route
When I turned down Willamette I was passed by a spandexed cyclist on a mountain bike. He sped on ahead and was out of sight in a few minutes. So I closed my eyes and regained my focus rather than burning all my energy to catch up with someone who'd smoke me anyway. This was a little before mile marker number one where I begin a long ascent up a shallow incline.

Stoplights were a positive boon and I took advantage of them to catch my breath which made my legs feel like brand new. Reckon that I'm not breathing enough and I'm pushing the anarobic threshold when I really shouldn't be doing such stuff. Breathing while exercising has always been an issue with me because I like to hold my breath.

Mile marker three is Cy's Red Top. Something I've never done is ride down Circle and I did that on Saturday. I turned onto a side street and rode around until I realized I was in a particularly genteel ghetto which made me get onto Airport and finish up my ride.

When I originally planned my trip I was going to visit Memorial Park since it appeared that I would be able to get there from Airport but ends up that I was stuck heading up Printers Parkway. I didn't stop once even though my hindbrain kept saying it's alright to take a one or two minute breather. Afterwards I headed down Bijou, went to Carl's Jr. for some lunch and rode the rest of the way home.

After Carl's Jr. I noticed that my rear wheel was making some crazy noise like I had a card in the spokes. I lifted the bike and turned the pedals, spun the wheel with my hand. The noise was still there. Fortunately after riding it a few blocks the noise went away. My layman's diagnosis is that I might've screwed up the truing of the back wheel when I locked it up.

The true of a wheel is how straight it is. Spokes keep everything in line but sometimes they get out of whack and need to be tightened up so the wheel is evenly perpendicular to the road rather than being a wobbly doughnut.

Right now I'm thinking about riding over to Memorial Park, circling the pond and heading over to America The Beautiful Park, Acacia Park then the park along Monument Creek. Haven't been down there in many a long while.

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