Dies the Fire by S.M. Sterling was awful. Awful, I tell you. Fortunately enough time has passed that I'm not lingering on the bits which really got my goat. I know Mr. Sterling's purpose was to write a story not irritate the editor of a vanity website.
Yet I'm still shaking my head over Singularity and The Jovian Chronicles. The former started out so well, engaging and interesting yet it devolved into a striking unlikely romance that felt like the editor said "THIS NEEDS SEX TO SELL!!!11one" followed by inconsistencies with characters and the ugly head rearing of the protagonist becoming a Mary Sue that would rival any of the Mary Sues featured at DevianTart or on some slashfic LiveJournal.
The Jovian Chronicles was just bad. An interesting idea that was interesting for about five minutes and then devolves into horrible, misguided theology and other fucking nonsense.
What's my point? I've never been published!
Why can't I focus on the good things and fuss with them and continue to laud them? Why the hell is it far simpler to bitch and moan rather than sing one's praises? Does it take fewer braincells to be negative rather than positive and constructive with one's criticism?
Blah, I have no fucking idea. The healthiest thing I can say is that I'm probably playing old tapes, running over the same ground rather than taking the initiative to do something new.
maribou was waiting in the doorway and the light behind her cast a long shadow across the lawn. Jaybird patted me on the shoulder and ran back home leaving me in the darkness along the road. Like Dr. Banner in the old Incredible Hulk television series I began walking down the long, lonely road towards my next adventure. Suburbia suddenly sprung up about me and I could see my car in the distance. A house across the street had a party which was winding down and everyone was following the host's edict of "You don't have to go home but you can't stay here."
As everyone was leaving, they were accompanied by the host's pets. Rats, cats, little yippy dogs and other critters flowed out onto the lawn in an ambivalently ambling carpet. To my horror I saw the critters go into the street and start wandering around and underneath the cars. These people, partygoers one and all, being the kind of folk who do not care for animals as living beings instead as objects were heedless of the beasts. Fortune smiled kindly upon the animals granting only near misses but my heart raced in helpless horror as I watched not knowing what to do. I couldn't reach them in time being so fat and useless.
One of the cars backed up and a little yorkie didn't make it. A short, piercing scream followed by the long shadow cast by the car's headlight became her final resting place. The hosts were crying and finally demanding that the people stop their cars and stay put until each little beast could be wrangled and brought back inside. Anger, sorrow, despair and frustration culminated in my waking from a sound sleep, my heart racing and my arms clutched around my pillows for dear life.
Gay as it sounds writing out the dream was about as stressful for me as having the dream in the first place.