October 2007

10/27/07
Work continues to be slow at a very strange pace. I'm too tired to discuss it. Anyway I figured out that I have at least one hundred and ninety seven days left at my job.

Reckon that sometime in March would be a good point to consider paying off my loan earlier than May 2008. As long as I have at least $5k USD in my account I'll be golden.

feelings, nothing more than feelings

After the bullshit of last week I've stopped being anxious and my emotions have been repressed or they've simply found a level leaving me emotionally neutral towards most things.

I guess it's a good thing. Leaves me without the desire to fap. Did I mention I'm talking less and muttering things under my breath? It's true. It's troooooo.

Most times I wish I was like this most of the time. Devoid of emotion. Running on an even keel.

Anyway I have therapy again on Tuesday. Supposedly this will be my first experience with EMDR. I'm ready because the doctor said that I'd be using a memory that's rated one or two out of ten rather than a nine or a ten. Such an event happened on Friday, pretty minor but I could see how it branches off into many things and may open up memories that I studiously ignore on a daily basis.

cats

black leg waiting hungrily and patiently

in yer dreams

I was at the building which hosts the offices of Usury, Inc.. I had to go upstairs and being a fatass I decided to get into the elevator. Some chick was in there with me and was also taking the lengthy journey to the third floor. Of course I don't know her from Eve and the only thing I recall was the fact that she had dark hair and eyes with light skin. Halfway up the power gave out and we sat on the floor. As the hours marched on we got to talking and realized we were never going to escape so we started fucking.

What?

I'm too bored and apathetic to describe oneiric intercourse for you, dipshit.