Today is the day that I play hooky from work.
Fortunately and unfortunately something happened to my right foot in the middle of Monday night or sometime Tuesday morning. I've been limping because something happened to my big toe or at least something happened to the area around it. Fucking hurts like crazy. On Monday it didn't hurt at all when I was riding my bike to and from work. Nor did it hurt while changing my tire. When I took my shower everything was right as rain. Now I don't know what the heck happened to my foot.
So I decided that I'm going to see the doctor on Wednesday afternoon.
So much running around on my day off but at least it will be good and accomplish much for my life.
Jaybird says that I need to accomplish something to raise my spirits as a human being.
Adrian - Start by forgiving yourself. Forgive yourself for every mistake you feel you made, forgive your self for every sin you think you've committed, forgive yourself for all of the demons you think you have in your closet. Then cry. Not just some little whimper, but an all out breakdown bawl that takes two days to recover from. Let it all out. To paraphrase Virginia Satir, let the dogs out of the basement. Then look in the mirror and find the good that so many of us see. And I don't mean any of that Stuart "I'm good enough, I'm smart enough and gosh darnit people like me" bullshit. I can tell you all the things that I feel are good and postive about you and the reasosn I choose to view you as a friend. Jaybird, maribou, Brian, radddige and your Dad can all do, and would all do, the same for you, probably to a greater extent then I could. Unless you realize and believe for yourself that the things we say are true, it will just feel like we are blowing sunshine up your ass. Throughout the whole process remember that there are people who care about you and love you. Now it's your turn to do the same for yourself. - elmgrows
I had to sit on it and read it a few times.
