3/6/07
How am I?
I feel like I am in limbo with my life.
As it stands, I really don't want to be around people at this juncture of my life. People don't like me and I don't like people. Life is pointless.
so she says
My sister remarked that I've gained weight out here. She compared my two identification photos as evidence. On the plus side, she's surprised that I'm not going bald nor do I have any gray in my hair considering my advanced age.
they know
Rich's cousin asks, "It's like that guy before Gotti. You know."
Rich says, "Yeah, Castellano."
Hearing that snippet of a conversation made me happy and less alienated out here even though I only heard it during a two hour dinner. I imagined Jaybird clutching his hands in front of him and beaming that million dollar smile.
woo
spot
In Yer Dreams
I dreamt that I was making myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. In the process of making the sandwich, I had cut up one of my black t-shirts to put in the sandwich. Only after I took a bite did I realize my mistake and felt bad for ruining one of my shirts.
Heck, it wasn't even one of the old shirts with the tiny holes near the pocket but one of the brand new ones I got early in January. This only added insult to injury.
