8/8/07
For those of you playing along at home I am trying to eat better. My goal weight is 250 pounds. Of course when I hit 250 pounds I reckon that I'll look positively gaunt. After my parents visited in early July I went downhill and sabotaged most of my progress. Their visit sent me for a loop and I became majorly depressed afterwards.
For those of you playing along at home I am trying to eat better. My goal weight is 250 pounds. Of course when I hit 250 pounds I reckon that I'll look positively gaunt. After my parents visited in early July I went downhill and sabotaged most of my progress. Their visit sent me for a loop and I became majorly depressed afterwards.
Mostly over guilt at stressing out Jaybird and maribou even though they didn't mind. The fact that I was insistent that raddidge was with me for emotional support. I won't let myself win. Plus I still have issues which is part of the reason why I live in Colorado rather than on the eastern seaboard. After six years I still have something to prove to myself and to my parents. Shit that I thought I had put behind me still keeps creeping up on me. Sometimes when I'm with raddidge I realize that I'm being my father and other times I'm being my mother. I need to be Chris.
The other reason why I'm not in New Jersey is pragmatic. Too fucking expensive and too fucking crowded.
