8/29/07
I missed the lunar eclipse. I kept thinking that the lunar eclipse would be Tuesday night going into Wednesday morning. Actually it was Monday night going into Tuesday morning.

Next lunar eclipse is going to be in February 2008 at a much more amenable time of night i.e. 8:01 p.m. MST.

Guess it's a consolation that it was overcast all night on Monday night.

My mother left a message on my infrequently checked voicemail. Fortunately I checked it today and got it piping hot. My little sister is now engaged to be married with her boyfriend of four or five years. I dunno how long she's known him but August 28^th is their anniversary. Now I have to see about getting the time off so I can attend the ceremony if I am invited there.

I've begun half-heartedly picking up the place. After taking out all the trash on Monday night I figured this won't be that daunting of a task but in the light of Tuesday I don't want to be bothered by it.

I am hoping this will help my mood because lately it's been complete shit. Saturday was a fine enough day but there was some tension that bothered me and wasn't really dispelled until late on Sunday.

Right now I don't want to be bothered with people yet when it comes to people like the Birds I can't do my work schtick of staring straight forward while maintaining a mask that does not show anything about who I am. Not even my ειδωλον shows a glimmer in my eyes.

My brain is acting up, telling me that I've worn out my welcome and I am no longer a shiny friend with brand new things to share and no new laughs and I don't even want to bring up this kind of shit with other people because I do it Every. Single. Fucking. Time.

I'm going to use this word in the future as a secular equivalent of the word "soul". The latinized form is eidolon.