1/19/06
Right now I'm a bit concerned because there's a chance that I may not get dream number seven hundred in the month of January.

Despite strong concerns about the decline of this neighborhood and issues with my job, right now I want to meet this particular goal.

A couple times a year, I become incredulous. The question on the tip of my tongue is, "Why the fuck am I in Colorado?" Well there's elbow room and supposedly better taxes than New Jersey. After nearly five years I am thunderstruck that I left my entire life behind in New Jersey. Plus I've never really gotten around to saying "I got mixed up with the wrong people and had to leave" whenever people ask me why I'm out in Colorado.

The same motif happened back in high school. In my sophomore year, I went from my hometown high school to a regional high school a couple towns away because I was sick of the people and generally being miserable. A few years after graduation, I would run into one or two people and think to myself "I'll tell them I went to juvey" or "I was at Greystone" but never went down that self destructive path. Plus I would get annoyed that they'd recognize me depsite the fact that the last time they saw me, I had no facial hair and my mane was nonexistent.

Now that work is entering the slow season, I'm still working like it's a week before Christmas or the first weeks of July. My only goal is to get those applications done and precipitate the requests for volunteers to go home. My philosophy about work is fairly simple, get the work done until there is no work and get sent home early. Also I want to make as much money as possible. The adolescent part of me always thinks that they should pay me for a full day's work if I get three times as much done as the average person.

Man, I'm really scraping the bottom of the barrel. Just like the tagline says, "It doesn't have to be good, it just has to be daily."

I miss snow. Reckon right now that the summer of 2006 will be remarkably dry unless February and March end up being particularly snowy.