5/29/05
The past two days have not been good days for me. I'll get a headache for about ten minutes followed by bizarre ravings and cursing under my breath for a while. When the pain subsides, I return to feeling completely normal. Most of the pain seems to be on the right side of my head near the crown. This entry is being written after one of those situations and I feel like a completely different person.
The past two days have not been good days for me. I'll get a headache for about ten minutes followed by bizarre ravings and cursing under my breath for a while. When the pain subsides, I return to feeling completely normal. Most of the pain seems to be on the right side of my head near the crown. This entry is being written after one of those situations and I feel like a completely different person.
In Yer Dreams
Last night I saw a very beautiful place. raddidge was taking me to a beautiful mountain resort that we could only reach by inching along a deer path. Along the way were these open spots of pink rock which she insisted we had to step on to safely proceed to our destination.
At the top of the trail, stretching out to the horizon, were numerous mountains covered in green foliage with white mist filling the valleys. A wide, blue river flowed nearby towards the unseen valley floor. I was stunned and realized this is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my fat life. raddidge dragged me a little further to a large, rustic mountain lodge. There was a gravel path leading down the mountain towards another lodge which was closed last year so the new lodge could be established on the mountain. Flapping in the breeze was a sign that said "NO BABIES". It was under a banner that said "TWO PILLS ARE ALL YOU NEED". An Indian was standing next to me, the cowboy kind not the 7-11 kind, who was taking pictures of the signs. I bummed his camera and took a few pics for myself to share with raddidge and post on my site.
We went back to the river where I discovered that it was suddenly enclosed and was turned into a flume ride for the visitors. The trail suddenly became a bar and restaurant full of tables and chairs but empty of people. Everything felt so sad and like Disney with the varnished wood and green carpeting.
At the top of the trail, stretching out to the horizon, were numerous mountains covered in green foliage with white mist filling the valleys. A wide, blue river flowed nearby towards the unseen valley floor. I was stunned and realized this is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my fat life. raddidge dragged me a little further to a large, rustic mountain lodge. There was a gravel path leading down the mountain towards another lodge which was closed last year so the new lodge could be established on the mountain. Flapping in the breeze was a sign that said "NO BABIES". It was under a banner that said "TWO PILLS ARE ALL YOU NEED". An Indian was standing next to me, the cowboy kind not the 7-11 kind, who was taking pictures of the signs. I bummed his camera and took a few pics for myself to share with raddidge and post on my site.
We went back to the river where I discovered that it was suddenly enclosed and was turned into a flume ride for the visitors. The trail suddenly became a bar and restaurant full of tables and chairs but empty of people. Everything felt so sad and like Disney with the varnished wood and green carpeting.
shh
All I need is peace and quiet.
I don't think my folks are ever coming out here, nor do I believe that I'll see Brian out here again.
Just meaningless thoughts running through my head.
I don't think my folks are ever coming out here, nor do I believe that I'll see Brian out here again.
Just meaningless thoughts running through my head.
raddidge isn't coming over this weekend because she's up at the compound to drill her militia. Next weekend, she says, raddidge will be here for at least four days.
