7/23/05
My brain still works except it functions more slowly than usual. This reminds me of a report about dyslexics who struggle with most school systems. Most are more intelligent than their peers but they fall behind because they are slower and more deliberate with their thoughts and expressions.
Right now the faster part of my brain is locked into processing mode. Everything else is working through the slower part which I estimate is a good thing. The brain will eventually become faster as the other half gains momentum. The most important goal is to prevent my brain from calcifying and becoming rigid.
One of the worrying aspects of this scenario deals with creativity. I haven't had any real creative thoughts for the past couple of months. There's a packet of post-its somewhere in my apartment about collectivism. Since that spurt, I've been dull witted and struggling to remember trivia and information. Thankfully it's stuff like "uh, that guy, from colorado, blew his brains out, gonzo journalism" and ten minutes later I remember Hunter S. Thompson's name.

Friday had an idea. I always wear black at work because I am slovenly and fat. Plus black goes with anything and is appropriate for any occasion. I wore a dark blue shirt on Friday and I figured it'd be amusing to get a series of shirts which are a progressively lighter blue until it mirrors a springtime sky. I'd take notes and see who notices the gradual change. Heaven knows that if I went to work wearing bright red pants and a bright red t-shirt then there would be lots of whispering and incredulous stares.

Right now I'm in dire need of a beard trim. Lately I've just been twirling and tugging at my beard nonstop and until I get it looking a bit less scruffy I'll continue to fuss with my beard. Plus Saturday 7/23 is my anniversary of meeting raddidge in person! Last year Colorado Springs was suffering through relentlessly cloudy and rainy weather. For the past week there has been no relief from the ninety degree and higher heat. I long for the traditional Colorado weather cycle of blisteringly hot days with four p.m. thunderstorms and breezy nights.

For those of you who were paying attention or give a shit, my father says he's going to be fine. Right now he's on a regiment of antifungal medications along with regular visits to an allergist. I am relieved by his reassurances. Deep down I hope he was being straight with me and not trying to protect me.

I reckon that I need to exercise my brain. Socialize with people on a regular basis who are my equals or betters. A change in my daily routine of sleep, slave, Nethack, raddidge and sleep would be of use but I'm a creature of habit. Habits can be confortable but too much comfort always leads down the path of atrophy towards the palace of death. Heck, it was a big thing when I decided to start playing valkyrie in Nethack.
Speaking of Nethack, if I do end up ascending a valkyrie then I damn well better make sure that valkyrie gets an amulet of change and does something after the class quest to irrevokably change her/his alignment to chaotic. For those of you playing along at home, valkyries tend to be lawful or neutral. All valkyries at character generation time are female. Amulets of change will change that situation in a jiffy. Also the class quest is pivotal towards successfully ascending a character. Should a valkyrie's alignment be completely different then the valkyrie can never get the silver bell and never open up the final level which holds the fabled Amulet of Yendor.

Good night and I hope you have a good day because I love you.